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i feel like i've been the caterpillar, turning to goo, reforming my body into something new. except this will not even be my final form. disgusting.
another month has flown by, but things feel a little lighter. it feels like i've had a late summer renewal. things haven't been bad.. i made new friends, got to see old ones, had a lot of fun experiences. i still have enough money to indulge in myself (perhaps overindulged, but i'm course correcting now) despite my panic earlier in the year, and little by little, i feel myself settling in more comfortably here. and so, of course, i also become nostalgic and want to leave! for really selfish reasons. of course. but right now i can't even fathom it, it's just like.. on the radar
the end of the year is coming up again already, so i'm trying not to be intimidated by it. my increased social time means less alone time, which isn't always bad, but going to a wedding where i could count the people i even vaguely knew prior on one hand was a little overwhelming. i even ended up in some places that brought back lots of memories of growing up. things i felt then, things i feel now. it made me a little more determined to draw and create more often, so i've been trying to write more fanfiction and have been keeping up a drabble series. drabbles are like, stupidly fun!! (and apparently different than ficlets and snippets)
i was very green and did not actually know about the word counts differing between terms, only vague sizes based on what i had seen when reading, so im glad i found the toku100 challenge. editing and rewriting and thinking of concepts has been fun. i'm not really comfortable posting drabbles on their own so i decided to focus them all on one ship. it's kind of helped me shape their dynamic more solidly i think.. i usually have a lot of vague thoughts about characters, but just imagining them in little scenarios helps. i was kind of lamenting that i missed old rp partners who i felt like really helped me hone my writing, but i guess eventually doing things yourself helps you create your own vision!! who knew.
i still have a lot of weak spots of course, but i think.. i dunno, it's easier to focus on them now? because i'm kind of forcing myself, but it's also just a little bit at a time, so that i can improve. (insert kotoha shinkenger analysis here)
speaking of super sentai, i stumbled upon some old oc concepts that would be pretty cool rangers...
another month has flown by, but things feel a little lighter. it feels like i've had a late summer renewal. things haven't been bad.. i made new friends, got to see old ones, had a lot of fun experiences. i still have enough money to indulge in myself (perhaps overindulged, but i'm course correcting now) despite my panic earlier in the year, and little by little, i feel myself settling in more comfortably here. and so, of course, i also become nostalgic and want to leave! for really selfish reasons. of course. but right now i can't even fathom it, it's just like.. on the radar
the end of the year is coming up again already, so i'm trying not to be intimidated by it. my increased social time means less alone time, which isn't always bad, but going to a wedding where i could count the people i even vaguely knew prior on one hand was a little overwhelming. i even ended up in some places that brought back lots of memories of growing up. things i felt then, things i feel now. it made me a little more determined to draw and create more often, so i've been trying to write more fanfiction and have been keeping up a drabble series. drabbles are like, stupidly fun!! (and apparently different than ficlets and snippets)
i was very green and did not actually know about the word counts differing between terms, only vague sizes based on what i had seen when reading, so im glad i found the toku100 challenge. editing and rewriting and thinking of concepts has been fun. i'm not really comfortable posting drabbles on their own so i decided to focus them all on one ship. it's kind of helped me shape their dynamic more solidly i think.. i usually have a lot of vague thoughts about characters, but just imagining them in little scenarios helps. i was kind of lamenting that i missed old rp partners who i felt like really helped me hone my writing, but i guess eventually doing things yourself helps you create your own vision!! who knew.
i still have a lot of weak spots of course, but i think.. i dunno, it's easier to focus on them now? because i'm kind of forcing myself, but it's also just a little bit at a time, so that i can improve. (insert kotoha shinkenger analysis here)
speaking of super sentai, i stumbled upon some old oc concepts that would be pretty cool rangers...
