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this time, with feeling
May. 20th, 2023 11:20 am i don't have big plans for this. as i ramp up into my 30s, chugging along with all of the tears i've shed in therapy, i realize i long for somewhere to muse, to wonder, to gather my thoughts outside of an emotional journaling session. there's just a different energy that goes into blogging.
as for an intro? i'm just an invertebrate (of the nudibranch variety) cruising the ocean of life, stopping by on some coral for shelter and to watch. i have grown up very critical over nothing, defensive in the face of love, and distant while craving closeness. i write and draw fanworks, but have always had an interest in original stories and character design. i may share some OCs and story ideas i have for them, since in the past i've been hesitant to share on social media as it feels like anything i post becomes lost to time almost as soon as it goes up.
so if you're interested in what i have to say, whether genuinely or ironically, please, feel free to tune in!
i remember reading my sister's blog posts when i was young. i idolized her, wanted to embody her thoughts and soul because--well, that's how you feel when you idolize someone, right? a couple years ago, it ended with me hating her guts. as of recently, i understand it's because i was finally realizing who i really was.
and so, in traditional SEA fashion, i have chosen a dessert from my culture as an alias, a little piece of my past to keep me tethered on my journey, something to hang on to and reshape as needed. i may be emotional, i may be hypocritical, and i may just talk a lot of nonsense about things i like. i may wax poetic over things others already know, or things people wholeheartedly disagree with.
but it's for me. and that's what i want.
and so, in traditional SEA fashion, i have chosen a dessert from my culture as an alias, a little piece of my past to keep me tethered on my journey, something to hang on to and reshape as needed. i may be emotional, i may be hypocritical, and i may just talk a lot of nonsense about things i like. i may wax poetic over things others already know, or things people wholeheartedly disagree with.
but it's for me. and that's what i want.
as for an intro? i'm just an invertebrate (of the nudibranch variety) cruising the ocean of life, stopping by on some coral for shelter and to watch. i have grown up very critical over nothing, defensive in the face of love, and distant while craving closeness. i write and draw fanworks, but have always had an interest in original stories and character design. i may share some OCs and story ideas i have for them, since in the past i've been hesitant to share on social media as it feels like anything i post becomes lost to time almost as soon as it goes up.
so if you're interested in what i have to say, whether genuinely or ironically, please, feel free to tune in!
