q: what's in a blog?

wow ok i had this draft from god knows when and i wrote so much i figured i ought to post it. i hope it enriches you




( a: whatever i put in it, i guess )

now for the post i actually wanted to make

i started this blog because i had made some friends who were very into substack and whatever that fancy movie review site is. i thought about substack, but it kinda intimidated me. and i never actually used dw back in the day. as mentioned before, my hub was xanga, and it served me pretty well until i moved on to myspace, etc. but i always wonder, if i hadnt followed my rp friends to those sites, would i have kept such good contact with my school friends?

things have been falling more into perspective lately. instead of reaching and jumping and slipping and eventually giving up from the exhaustion, i feel my body stretching and grasping old things in new ways. it hurts. but it's growing pains. it will pass.

for the ones i've hurt before, i move forward. i'm sorry i couldn't treat you better. all i can do is keep going. like the ache in my skull, and the soreness of my muscles. the tension dissipates, and i see the light shine through. i'm so afraid. i'm also so hopeful.